RT @OntShoresFdn: Excited to host our 6th Annual Mental Health Conversation Luncheon tomorrow and we could not have done it without the sup…
Life has been difficult over the last few years. Whenever I could catch a breath, devastating news would follow.
In January of 2018, my father passed away. My mother was sick as well and I fell into a deep depression. I didn’t leave my house, went on a sick leave from work and spent most of my days sleeping.
In the fall of 2018, I lost my oldest brother to suicide. I couldn’t come to terms that he was gone. I was suicidal and my family pressured me to get help. I went to a walk-in clinic and I was referred to Ontario Shores Centre for Mental Health Sciences (Ontario Shores).
I’ve felt firsthand the negative effects of the pandemic.
I am 49, from Oshawa, Ontario and work as a sales representative at PepsiCo Foods Canada. Although much of my role focuses on managing the business, I spend a lot of my time in stores working with the public.
Working the front lines during a pandemic creates a roller coaster of emotions. Every day there is a new procedure to follow.
As a kid I played a lot of sports and mental toughness was the world I knew. Growing up in world where everyone wants you to be tough, I began to experience anxiety as a teenager.
During university I worked at a grocery store. Often we were understaffed, leading me to be thrown into roles I wasn’t trained in. A buzzer would go off and I would get a constricting feeling in my stomach and my teeth would chatter. I didn’t understand these feelings but looking back I was triggered by the thought of going into work.
I began to experience anxiety again and found it difficult to leave my bed.